It's always surprising to me the random events that change my perspective on life. It never fails that every time I think I have things figured out, something always happens or changes. It's an awesome learning experience, but the process of figuring out what the lesson is isn't always quick, and it isn't always easy. At the very least I realize that nothing in my life is completely solid, no decision, philosophy, feeling...everything is and will always be constantly changing, exceptions to the rule will always have to be made, and matters of the heart are ever evolving. Speaking in absolutes doesn't seem to serve me well because most of the time, at some point, I change my mind. I guess some people would call me indecisive for this, or unable to stick to my convictions. I like to think this makes me flexible, and am coming to accept that it isn't a character flaw. Situations arise, circumstances change, and all I can ever expect myself to do is deal with what I have at the time in the best way that I can. Maybe there is no absolute resolution to certain things. Maybe taking what you can get when you can get it isn't being "weak", maybe it is just coming to realize that when it comes to other people in a constant state of change, as we all are, sometimes expectations only cause disappointment. Sometimes I think I get caught up dissecting and over analyzing situations and outcomes in order to find some resolution when at the end of the day, it simply is what it is.