I remember when I was younger I thought I could do anything, any time. If I didn't want to go to work, I'd call in. If I didn't want to do something, I'd blow it off. If my day wasn't shaping up to be fun and exciting, I'd make the changes necessary to make sure it was. I was basically immature and selfish, right?
I'm noticing now that I have gone into some kind of "auto-pilot" mode. When I wake up in the morning I go through the same motions like a freakin' robot day after day after day. It's all very Truman Show-ish. Although I feel under paid and sometimes under appreciated at my job, I can't remember the last time I called in to work. I haven't taken a sick day in over a year. Everyone comes before I do. I'm last on the list. Is this maturity? Does finally just sucking it up and accepting that you have to do things you don't want to all of the time mean that I am an adult now? Is that even normal? At the same token, is it normal to wake up every day and be super excited? I know there is a balance between the two extremes, but I am just not finding it. Something has to change, because I don't think I want to be in this groove forever....even if it means that I never "grow-up".
