This morning I was feeling a bit fed up with my familial situation, which is really the old dog in my life, limping around behind me, looking like hell, and refusing to die. Weird analogy... Anyway, it's sad when I am the one always reaching out to people, and inevitably after so much of this, I start to want to cut people off because it HURTS to be ignored. It is, however hard to hurt for too long when I have the other side of my family that is amazing and supportive, and I couldn't ask for anything better! It is funny how things happen to keep you grounded. I mean, too much of a good thing seems to rarely be allowed in life. If everything is good, well....you're probably in denial. Sounds cynical, but it's just the truth. Everything has it's opposite, and the trick is finding a balance, and THAT is all in the mind......if you can't find anything to be thankful for, you're always going to be sucked back into the pattern of thinking that the universe is doing something TO you, rather than doing something FOR you. I try to steer clear of that as much as possible, although I can't deny that there are days that I can't help but feel like someone upstairs is shining a magnifying glass on my tiny squirming body...watching & laughing. Terrible, right?