Hi. My name is Mary, and I'm a control freak.

There are times when I sit back and all I can think about how ridiculous it is that I can not just explain to someone how and why to do the right thing, and have them listen. This is the nature of free will, but my oh my do people ever abuse it. It's almost just too much to bear, especially when it's someone you love. I know that I can't control someone else's actions, nor am I responsible for them, but I have to find a way not to feel so much heartache over it. I'm starting to realize it isn't ok for me to want to "fix" everything, because it will NEVER be possible. That sort of thinking, while it sounds so giving and selfless and concerned, isn't realistic at all, and although it's my hearts first reaction, I have to let me brain jump in at some point and say "hey! It's out of your hands...you have to move on!". Otherwise what can I do? Sit there and beat myself up wishing I could do something in a situation where I can't do anything? Sounds like a waste of time to me...but that doesn't make it any easier.